Reality is harsh at times. It's something that I reach for, but once grasped struggle to live with. This life I have lived the last 4 years seems almost dream like. Suddenly I'm waking up and feel like the world I have grown so accustomed to is crashing around me. Everything that made me feel safe, now makes me feel vulnerable. It's hard to feel alone when you are surrounded by so many things that you love. I know that this is part of life, and that like every challenge, I will break free from these feelings. I know that I will move on to new experiences, and challenges. It's not that I'm afraid of change. I'm afraid of losing what I have grown to love through change.