Open Table

I have begun to read this book called "The Open Table" it's more a workbook type of reading by Donald Miller one of my favorite authors. Each chapter or session is several pages of passages and writings from the author and then he poses questions that make you really look into your own faith, your beliefs, your past, present and future. I have been answering these questions in the margins of the book with a spectacular pen that makes you want to fill pages with words. I have decided that I would like to post some of those questions here for me to respond to. I always write more and elaborate on my thoughts when I'm able to type instead of write with my own hands. This generation has created that in me I suppose.  Anyway, some of the first questions that this book asks you to think about are "Do you think God likes you". Of course we know that God loves you with all his heart but does he like the person you are?   The same goes with people in our lives. We love people unconditionally because of who they are, and because of the relationship we have with them. That doesn't always mean that we like them at that moment. We can love a person without liking their actions. We can love a person for who we know they are, and who they can be without liking the person they are acting out in daily life.

-me

Life is a succession of moments. To live each one is to succeed.
              - Corita Kent

Every moment in life happens for a reason. :)

I'm afriad that all that I have is not enough.

That I want more from you then you can give.

I don't want to give up, but don't want to give in.

It seems I have come to a gap and struggle with the idea of leaping.

Leaping away from you...

People who come alive in who they are create the world.

"Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive."

I can't tell you where I heard this quote, how I found it, or who wrote it. I can however say that it says so much to me in so few words. Lately I see God leaving me little messages in my everyday life that relate so much to what I have been feeling the past couple weeks. This quote reminds me that God doesn't want you to do something because you feel like it, and live out your life as half of the person you could have been. God wants you to be everything you are, and everything you have the potential to be. You are able to make the biggest difference in your lifetime as the true you.

I have been thinking of what to do with my life once August hits. I feel that I need to give myself a deadline for the job that I have now, and the life that I'm leading. It's not that I'm not happy now, but I'm not as happy as I could be. I'm not living each day as a person who has come alive in who they are. I'm desperately trying.

Growing Up, Moving Forward

With each year I realize more about myself. I have taken the last week of somewhat solitude to read and think about what I want out of this life, and what I'm giving to others. I just finished reading "Crazy Love" by Francis Chan and it really got me thinking about what we give to this world. What our existence does for others? How we need to place our trust in God to help guide our lives. That when we find ourselves lost God will help us to find where we need to go.

In my own life I have concluded that I have never truly put my life in God's hands. That even though I have taken chances in my life, and seen and been a part of some incredible things I have always had a back-up-plan. I have never let myself be completely unsure if I could help it, and when I'm It terrifies me. I need to learn to completely trust in God. To be willing to not have a back-up-plan.

Why put things off that I have wanted to do? Why wait to give until I feel I have excess? I have been given incredible blessings and want to make the most of them in every possible way. I don't want to look into the future at what I could have, while missing out on what I have at this moment.

"Live out in your daily life the love and obedience that God has asked of you"

"God created us in such a way that we need to struggle to stay alive" Gary Thomas- Sacred Marriage